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Comfort of Strangers

By Beth Orton

Release date: 07 February, 2006

10:58 PM

Thursday, March 01, 2007

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i really do like it when I leave a bar smiling. I really love that I spend a cool 6 hours making my mind up about the dishonest nature of one human being and spending 1 and a half hours making my mind up that people, in general, are awesome, kind and creative.

I appreciate sitting in a cold car waiting for songs to end and allowing to be transported to 2004, Providence Rhode Island in the back of someone's backyard dancing in the moonlight.

I miss places I've been

I miss places I've yet to go

I want to see life as a potluck

and I don't ever want to go hungry.

I know there is enough for everyone

I know there are no bad choices, only changes.

I know that I am destined to recreate my mother's life with different results.

Finally, I am okay with that.

I wish all my friends to know joy and peace and I wish I made it easy for them but I don't think I do.

I miss people I have alienated.

I wish I hadn't gone lonely, needy crazy- just romantic, sort of Sylvia Plath crazy only with a happier ending.

I love you. You that are listening.

Someday, that will be priceless.

For now I will just say goodnight and hope you don't hold it against me in the morning.

Know that I meant well.