sunday again

Currently listening:

You Are Free

By Cat Power

Release date: 18 February, 2003

11:09 PM

Monday, February 05, 2007

sunday again

It has come to my attention recently that home is not a place but an experience. Home can be in a house but most likely is a place that is inside of you. I feel I have been searching for it outside and in towns I've never been to, cities that I've lived in before, places that I have visited and long for merely because it isn't the place that I'm living right now.

I used to say that home was where my mom lived, with that not being a reasonable statement these days, I am forced to face other truths about the idea of home. And to be perfectly honest, if I wasn't in the third hour of procrastinating about writing a 3- page- double- spaced- paper on my most memorable experience viewing a work of art, I would not be visiting this dialogue on "HOME".

Memorable art. How do you pick one? That's like being asked what's your favorite movie. How does one answer that and why should it be asked? As if the right answer will get you a reward and the wrong answer will exile you. Of course, if you ever find yourself in filmschool be prepared at every turn, every new class, every introductory "will you work on my movie for free" meeting to be asked what your favorite movie is.

It's such a quick and dirty way of feeling like you know something about someone. I get asked that question in bars, hell, I ask that question in bars; sadly I never get rewarded with the type of prizes one finds in the eyes of interestingly attractive men in bars. Oh, well, I'm young-ish and have many years ahead of me of drinking in bars alone trying to connect with a stranger and have time to come up with the right answer.

What a relief.